Have you noticed the shift?
I ain’t living in the dark no more.
It’s not a promise, I’m just gonna call it.
Ahhh Bon Iver, you clever son of a bitch.
The shift can happen subtly, but that doesn’t mean the shift can’t blindside you. That subtle change between continued survival and embrace. The shift between day-to-day and moving forward, now happy every step of the way. That thrust that differentiates between the eventual, inevitable advance, and having someone that helps you make sense of what you’re going through: someone you want to tell everything to (every word, worry, fear, thought and hope), and hear everything from…every word, ever worry, every fear, every thought and every hope. The difference between being alone, and being a part of something bigger: something you feel matters, something that lasts and something that makes you feel good about what you’re doing.
Something that lets you be part of someone else, and lets someone else in. Someone who’s like no one else; who possesses that indescribable combination of factors that can’t be articulated, but that you know is perfect. Someone who just gets you (and who, in turn, you understand and adore).
When the shift happens, change is inevitable. And by goodness, it’s exciting.
SIDEBAR: using the phrase ‘by goodness’ actually makes you feel less manly. Lesson learned.
It’s a good place to be where I am.