A Word on Robin Williams.
Celebrities, like regular people, die all the time. They die in quiet, lonely bedrooms, they die on roads, they die in public places, and sometimes, they die by their own hand. I must say, normally a celebrity death doesn't really hit me too hard; you see the posts on Facebook or Twitter, you chase the news, you reflect on a movie or a song, and then you go back to your day, maybe with a shout out to the fallen on social media. But this one hit.
I know what if feels like to have deep, bottomless energy, and I also know what it feels like to lose touch with it, and sink down into depression. In fact, the former can be looked at as compensation for the latter. I've never had the drug addictions, but I've battled my demons, same as anybody else. And when I heard that Robin had taken is own life, probably as a result of depression, it scared me very, very much. Here is a man who has accomplished everything, who has millions in the bank, and is generally adored by all. And yet that wasn't enough to keep him from falling.
Anyone that has battled depression knows the hardest part is how completely illogical it is. You know you should be OK; you understand that there is no reason for the feelings you feel, the worry the clings to you, and grips you tighter and tighter. But that doesn't change one, key thing: you do feel this way, you can't bluff it, and you can't pretend it isn't there.
If we learn one thing from this, I hope it is this: reach out, and get help as soon as you feel the grip of it. Don't let pride get in the way: the black dog doesn't care who you are, or what you do, or the company you keep.
The longer you grapple with the 'why', the harder it will get to figure it out, shake it, move it aside, and march on. The best advice I ever got was to treat depression like diabetes: you can pretend you don't have it, but it won't make it go away, and it won't get you better. Face it, trust someone, and start to heal; and know that if you can't find a person nearby to talk to, there are other options. Here's one: http://suicidepreventionaust.org/
RIP, Robin Williams, truly one of the funniest men there ever was.