Today I was not myself. I was hazy, foggy and blurry. I was to blame, but today, blame didn't matter. Today, I went to a meeting for nothing, cancelled at the last minute, thanks for playing. Today I crashed my bike in the rain, but luckily didn't get too hurt. Today I called my mum and my sister, because I needed to hear their voices. Today, I thought about home, and I thought about the things and the people I miss the most. And today, more than any other day in a long while, I wondered why I wasn't with them.